|That feeling you get when you notice you cant move on, but he already has.. </3|
Rest in Peace, Starbuck - my little girlRest in Peace, Starbuck - my little girl by =Crazdude
I'm sorry I haven't been as responsive as usual and even a little snappy at times in the past few weeks. I've been depressed off and on since I heard the initial news that Starbuck had liver cancer. I figured that my only solution was to see her.~stromie and I came to the conclusion that it would just be best for me to go alone and see her for a weekend (much cheaper for a single ticket and he was willing to help pay.)
I just called my aunt now with the hopes of scheduling a time for myself to go out and see Starbuck this weekend. She told me that she had been too upset to tell me sooner but Starbuck was put to sleep at the vet last week.
Starbuck hadn't been eating except small bits of food and pills that my aunt fed to her by hand. Starbuck had lost over 20lbs... she was weak and dehydrated (her paw pads were so cracked dry that she couldn't walk comfortably) but she was determined to go for walks every day (she had the determination that my mom did.) In her last
|Sometimes, I want to die. To releive myself of the pain and rejection.|
I feel like placing your pistol against my apex
and squeezing the trigger. Right in front of you.
Like taking your katana, putting it to my neck
Why I havent yet?
Hah, beats me.